I was thinking the other day how I haven't listened to this song in at least a year, probably more, and wondering if it still touches me as deeply as it used to.
To tell the truth I've been scared to listen to it, as I don't want to relate to it as well as I once did. Cause at that time, things in my life weren't quite right. In fact, not even close.
Thinking about it two days ago, without still listening to it, my biggest question was how I could have ever sat and questioned whether it was a sad or happy song. In my memory it had to be a sad song.
Listening to it again now, I think my original question still holds. Because it might not be about sadness...it may be about foolish hopefulness...and that is the most amazing/warming emotion humans can feel.
It may not even be about the end of a relationship like I once thought...it could be about those wrong assumptions that you make that drive you crazy. And I am prone to making loads of those. Therefore I can relate :)
And it is still the most fucking beautiful song I've ever heard.
And the new Hither Green housemate, John, came in as I was listening to Silent All These Years and we had a conversation about the general awesomeness of Tori Amos as he made his dinner.
These are things that make me happy.
As does the rest of the evening generally :)
- Music:Tori Amos-China